The Life of Misery...

How do you know the depths of your existence?is it when you think you have achieved everything you desired?or is it when you have nothing yet you're truly content with what's in front of you...Is it when you are surrounded by the most powerful and influential people in society?Or rather be in the company of the most rugged yet humble by-standers in the municipality? That is a question that i have wanted to find answers for so long and still i fail...for it has long been a contradiction in life...How can we measure the amount of value that we have in our life?So far i did try to test if my life did have such essence as they say...but somehow it just wont appear to me...so far I've been living like a fool in a world full of lies...not knowing which is even true...if there was any...i felt all alone and miserable, so how can i say that my life was even worth anything?when from the very beginning it wasn't even valued by anyone...not even the closest people i know...